This is Dilemma

Sorry for double post << WTF we're not even in a forum.

You see, I like Kristoph. I really like him. When I first saw his official art, I knew that I was going to like him *err... I think we've heard these words before...*.
His official art is really, really appealing to me *dayumyouCapcomyoureallyknowhowtomakegorgeouscharacter*.

My 1st impression:
Oh my. Who is this guy? He's totally my type.

I thought that he is the prosecutor of the game (because he really looks like Klavier). To tell you the truth, I called Kristoph 'Klavier' the very first moment of the game. Because 'Klavier' is an unique name, I remembered it, not Kristoph XDDD

I really like the way he smiles and keep his cool headed. And he has a nice 'objection'. *swoon*
To know that he is the main villain, it's just so... Sad :(

This is contradictory. This is OBJECTIONABLE!! T^T
1. I like Phoenix too. Well not in a lust *wait... Did I just say 'lust'?* way. How could Kristoph do that to Phoenix? T^T He made the whole PW fans sad. He might as well made Edgeworth sad. T________T
2. I adore Klavier. Bagai pinang dibelah dua, he looks alot like Kristoph. But I heard *or so I read in the spoilers. Yeah I don't mind spoilers. As long as it's not too spoiled XDD*, Kristoph hates Klavier. T^T How could someone hate his own brother?? And Klavier is such an adorable kid!! I'm asking what is contained in Kristoph's brain... T^T
3. Apollo is cute. Kristoph hates him too T^T How... How could!!
4. He wears nail polish *or so I read in the spoilers*

So how could I like a character like that? T^T

I wrote this because I read a doujinshi about Phoenix, after losing his badge. He looked in the mirror, he stared at his suit. No badge on it, he started to look down, remembering Maya, Mia, Edgeworth... It's just too much. Kristoph is pure evil. T^T
And I read about Edgeworth crying after he saw Phoenix suit, without a badge on it... And Edgeworth started to cry, then Phoenix held him... T_________T
Well it's doujinshi. But it's still sad!! Kristoph did make Phoenix lost his badge.

This is dilemmaaaaaaaaaaaaa T________T
So hot, yet so evil... Arrrggghh you can't just say, "try to like Klavier. He's not evil. He looks a lot like his brother. Just tell him to stop tanning himself and start to wear glasses". Klavier is NOT Kristoph T^T Huhuhuhuhuhuuuuuu...

Now you see how I play game wholeheartedly, don't you? Keep calling me freak, I don't care!! T_______T
I'm saddddd!!
HUZZAH!! 2009!!

I was chatting with my brother. We were talking some kind of 'self-confidence'. Then one thing led to another...

My brother:
If Kristoph asks, "have you do your homework?" while Klavier comes with flowers and love letters, that doesn't mean that Kristoph doesn't like you.

Meh:
...Your words are like fanfic, really made me flattered. Please go on. *blush*

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Seriously, that is one good opening for this year, bruder. I laughed maniacally and I'm sure I was blushing like mad that time. All of this because it sounds so good when others write it, it feels so... Real. *blush*

But then...

My brother:
Kristoph: Shishi, have you do your homework?
Meh: Yeah. Why did you ask? Do you want to copy it? Here, take this!!
Kristoph: *cries in the depth of his heart*
Klavier: Hey Shi-shi have you received flowers that I sent to you a week ago?
Meh: Yeah *thinking that only monkeys are attracted to me*

... -_-"

I guess my brother has a talent for writing crack fanfic, eh?

Then Dita wrote me a fanfic to my request.
alfhaldj;lasjdd;a;sjd;lasj IT HAS JONGHUN AND YESUNG IN IT.
HUZZAH FOR 2009!!


Team B 3rd Stage "Pajama Drive"

Hell I'm late for listening this stage now. But hey! It's AKB48. It's very worth it.

For story short... AKB48 NEVER FAILS TO AMUSE MEH.

I like every single songs (well, not all. But ALMOST all). They are so much fun and unique. I wonder why Hello! Project is much famous than them.

No offense, H!P fans. Face it, AKB48 sings SO much better than H!P. I tried to listen to H!P. Morning Musume, Berryz Koubou, etc... And I was like, WTF?? So far, I only like 3 songs of H!P. Sakura Mankai, Furusato and Hare Ami Nochi Suki. I think I will never listen to H!P again. No thank you!

Enough about H!P. I thought this B 3rd stage is some kind of 'underdog' of the stages of Team A and K. No No Nooooo I was SOOO wrong. Team B 3rd Stage is awesome. They are as awesome as their senpais.
Hell... 'Shonichi' makes me cry again ;_; It's generally a cheerful song, but when you understand the lyric, you'll know... ;_;

My favorite is 'Temodemo no Namida' song.
"Even though I wanted to meet you like this,
Even if I like you like this,
You pass by before my eyes
Even so, like this,
I’m looking at you
From this place
Even though I wanted to meet you like this,
Even if I like you like this,
You won’t even look back to me
Even though I’m raising my umbrella
My cheeks get wet
I can’t do anything
About these careless tears"
Tokimeki Memorial Girl's Side - 1st Love

Oh my. This game is really tempting for someone single and pathetic like meh XDDD
No... Kidding. *in case there's people who read and play the game...*

I only played it for 20 minutes because I just got the game this morning.
The game seems fun. Good thing that we can hear what they say, because I can understand what they say, but read the kanjis, katakanas, hiraganas... Not so much >.>

I don't really understand the gameplay because of the damn Japanese characters... I only know that we have to adjust certain status and attract certain boys. Something like that...

I met 3 boys already. The first boy I met was someone who bumped to me in the first day of school, and the second was the teacher, and the third was a guy I met on the rooftops.

...But I kept running to the teacher. Is it because my 'knowledge' is only 36?? Or is it... A good sign?? *smirk*

I really need to practice Japanese. For my own sake, if you know what I mean... *maniacal laugh*

Apollo Justice

At first, I'm kinda disappointed that Phoenix is not the main character again. Then I knew that almost all old character are not in GS4 anymore, I'm really disappointed. I'm more disappointed when I knew that I can't even see a single Edgeworth. WTF? Then I look at Apollo's picture... "He is NOT a lawyer. He's just a beyblade player" >.>

And what the hell is wrong with his 'objection'? It doesn't fit his childish appearance... Rawr. I WANT PHOENIX BAAAACCK.

*sigh*
But this is an great Ace Attorney game. It won't do me harm to play it.

Hmm. The graphic is awesome. The music sounds a bit better than the previous game. And who is this gentle-looking lawyer in glasses I see in the first case?? He's hawt. My type *giggle*

And here comes Justice... He really doesn't look like a lawyer at all. Maybe because of his face? His clothes? >_>
Psh. Even Payne made his appearance in this game. Why doesn't Edgeworth? T^T

As far as I play, I enjoy it. Apollo's kinda cute <3 I like his reaction when he's in court XD And knowing that he always be the victim of everyone's prank, makes him even more cuteeee XD hahahaahha *Phoenix is evil*

Ah. Then I learned that blonde lawyer in glasses is the villain. WTF I don't care. Dahlia is cute and she is pure evil *maniacal laugh*

Hobo Phoenix is HAWT. Seriously, 7 years has passed and he became this cool? *drools* I can't believe it after I played the previous games. Feenie >> This usual Phoenix Wright we know and love >> Hobo Phoenix <3

Trucy. She's cuteeeee!! It made me laugh when she and his 'Daddy' prank Apollo. Wahahhaa.

Ema Skye. Oh my. She's changed. But she became prettier. Haha snackoos.

Klavier... <333 He looks a lot like Kristoph *without glasses, of course*, that means he's hawt and he's my type =3 And he's quite friendly too, not like other prosecutor tee hee. He's got this cool rock theme song. Awww he's so dreamy... *swoons*

Haha I like Apollo!! Well I can't compare him to Phoenix. Phoenix is number 1 defense attorney in my heart <3 But this game is not bad at all. I like looking at the graphic.

IT'S TIME FOR FANGIRLING APOLLO X KLAVIERRRRRR MWAHAHAHHAHAAAAA *maniacal laugh*
What is this feeling?

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*sigh*

I kinda like him. The first time I ever see him smile, I knew it. I knew that I was going to like him. He always smiles. Always. Sweetly, freely... Kindly.

That's why when I saw him looking down (it was only that one day, though. Other than that, I never see him looking so down), I can't help but worried. What happened?

Don't get me wrong, I don't have any intention to approach him. After all, he seems really happy to be beside her. No wonder though. For she is really nice to him.

I chose a song from my playlist. A song that I've heard of, but I never really know the meaning... Until now. I just knew it from the melody...

Goldfish Fireworks by Ai Otsuka

The goldfish swimming in my heart
Fall in love, making my feelings grow
Turning bright red
Though I know this love is never to be
But still I wished to be with you

The scent of summer in the rain
Goldfish fireworks drip down
The light is dazzling
And for an instant I can see your kind face

I don't want the goldfish swimming in my heart
To be surrounded by ugliness
I know they'll only live through the summer
So just give me a little time
But still I wished for your happiness

The scent of summer permeates the night
Goldfish fireworks drip down
I can't put it into words at all
And for an instant I can see your kind face

The scent of summer in the rain...
This is madness.

I was playing PW (finishing the damn cool case XD), then Mayen sent me an IM. She said that there was an argument in the forum. I read the whole thing.

...What is madness?

I can't believe that someone would answer a question that rude. It's not like a dumb question. It's just a curiosity. Not spam. Just an inquiring mind wants to know.

It's like...
You: Excuse me... Where can I get to...?
Him: STFU DON'T ASK DUMB QUESTION THE BUS IS NOT HERE YET

How would you respond to that? If it's me, I'd think that this dude has some serious constipation. You know how constipation can affect our mood that much XD

Besides, why he was so fussy about that? I mean... Is he the director? Is he the actors/actresses? Is he the producer? You bet your ass that he is NOT. It won't cause him lose out any money.

Some people just don't know how to behave properly.

I don't care that if he's best friend with the global moderator, a smart college student who uses big vocabularies and sarcasms. That doesn't mean that he can do as he pleases.

Oh and btw, I can't get to forum right now. I don't know why. Maybe because all that arguments. Ha...!! Erase it all you want, I already saved it into my PC.

Dayum my drawing skill is getting worse. It's because I rarely draw again!! Or to tell you the truth... Almost never drawing again. It makes me sad because I can imitate others drawing so easily, but I can't make my own drawing. Ironic.

I wanted to draw Edgeworth posing 'Tell Me' dance. I don't know what's so wrong about the drawing. Somehow... It doesn't look 'real' and not Edgeworth enough.

Even my piano skill is getting worse too.

I'm bad at everything.
OMFG!!

Just now, someone knocked on my door house. It took me some seconds, or nearly a minute, to go downstairs to open the door.

...Just when I grab the key to turn it, something black suddenly came in through the narrow space of my base door house.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

I screamed like a girl -_-"

Thank God I heard someone's voice over the door, saying, "SORRY!! I'M SORRY!! I thought there's no one at home!!".
When I opened the door, it was my neighbor, giving a wedding invitation -_-"

Holy sh*t my heart felt like stopping.
I've been thinking that... How do this feeling disappears, and then reappears again? You think that you don't like him anymore, then BAM!! He haunts your mind again.

Hhh... I hate to have this feeling over and over again. What exactly am I thinking? I know very well that his kindness doesn't mean anything. Psh. Get a grip.

I kinda get the feeling that I'd fall again -_-"
Damn.
I Overslept OMG!!

I've been trying NOT to miss the lecture again. I choose not to let my angsty feelings take on me. But... What can I do when it's about a really nice sleep!!??

Yeah. I can't sleep early last night so I played PW until 3 AM. I set the alarm in 6.15 AM and 6.30 AM, but I set it off unconsciously.

When I woke up...
Meh: Mmmhh... *eyes to the clock*
Clock: *7.50 AM*
O.O
Meh: He... HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE???
Seriously, I screamed. That's not over reacting because that was I really reacting -_-"

And I can't even do my 'better-not-take-a-bath-and-just-go-to-the-campus' plan because the lecturer is the scariest doctor ever in a whole campus' stories!! T^T
Trust me, I've been there, in his lecture. Ones who come late, don't come or you'll embarass yourself.

Great. Just... Great.

Chrono Trigger DS

You go back in time, and you change the whole world. Pretty tempting, huh? It's not that tempting when you have to save the world by defeating the monsters -_-" But that's game. And it's RPG. So... Yeah XD

To be honest, this is the first time I ever play the game with active time battle system. *YeahbecauseIdon'thaveanyPSsoIneverplayFinalFantasybeforeSatisfied??*. And I'm not get used to it. YET. I'll get over it. *evil laugh*

Hm. Going back or forth in time. That's pretty sad. Why? Because you see the future. If the future is not nice as you are in now, what will you do?
*yeah I tend to play the game wholeheartedly*

So far, I enjoy the game. Do you know what do I like about this game the most? It's the music. God, what an enchanting music they got there. So fits with the game.

Aaaaannndd!! We can hear the music game in 'Extras' on the main menu =3


New Blog Skin

Me: Wow. Didn't see that coming. O.o"
You: What?
Me: The new skin.
You: Yeah what's wrong with that?
Me: There's nothing wrong with the skin, there's something wrong with ME!!
You: ?? *tilt head*

Okay people, we know that is a pretty skin, but do you think it's kinda girlish?? I mean... TOO girlish?? What's gotten into me anyway?

Ah well. I AM a girl. That's not a big deal.

Hm. These are about me lately:
1. I can still hear the 'Takbir'. OMG FOR GOD'S SAKE THE ID ADHA IS OVER PEOPLE!! I mean... Come on!! I'm home alone hearing the 'Takbir' while my parents are having fun in America. That's not fun, I tell you.
2. Tomorrow's exam. I don't think I can pass it really well. Too much reading fanfic and doujinshi, I think I'm gonna get a C again.
3. Here's my plan when the exam is over. I will go home directly, no need to ask, "so? How the exam went for you?" to friends *because they would ask the same thing to me, and I don't really like answering it*. NEVER MEET YOUR FRIENDS AFTER EXAM. Especially the, "Oohh I answered that and I was right!! YAY!! How about you?". This is the kind of friends that you should avoid after an exam. FOR YOUR OWN SAKE, AVOID YOUR FRIENDS WHEN EXAM IS OVER!!

Yeah. That's it for now.
Phoenix Wright/Miles Edgeworth??

No, this time I won't tell you my fangirl craziness XD

I just kinda have a thought after reading some topic in court records forum, "If you had to marry one PW character...".

Ha yes of course the one who came first in my mind was Edgeworth XD
But something is just not about right -_-" Let's analyze this for a moment, shall we?
Edgeworth is... some kind of a high-class man. He's into classical music, tea, intelligence... etc, etc...
-_-" Psh. We're NOT so meant to be *hell yeah we're not. He's just a fictional character*. But if he's real, we're still not meant to be, because of that reason.

And if I had to marry one PW character (other than Edgeworth), I'd choose Phoenix.
After I played the games, read some fanfictions and doujinshis, saw some fanarts, I found a conclusion that Phoenix and I would really hit it out :)
He's an easy going, sweet (although I really wanted to vomit when I played Trials and Tribulation 1st case), kind, etc, etc... In other words, Phoenix is just another ordinary man. And that's what makes him so perfect with me <3

I even love a 'straight' pairing, Phoenix x Maya!!
And let me tell you, Phoenix x Maya is the first 'straight' pairing I ever like.
And the others?? YAOI ALL THE WAYYYYYY...!! XDDD
Oh God. This fangirling thing gets worse. O.o"

Ha. Yes. I even wanted to kick my classmate when she messed with my drawings >_>
And as Franziska said... "foolish fool who foolishly dreams of foolish dreams".
XD

Hhhh... Oh please. He's just a mere fictional character, for God's sake!!
Or maybe I should ask Capcom to make a dating game of him XD
But it would make me ended up like Phoenix in my previous entry hee heeeeeeee!!

*sigh* And here's why I should have get a better life.

Pertama, kurasakan getaran
Yang kerap goyahkan rasa
Serasa ada sentuhan baru
Sinari hari hariku

Pertama, dirikupun tergoda
Kilaunya matamu
Runtuhkan angkuhnya dinding hati
Koyakkan batas sepiku dinginku

Pertama untukku dan tak kulupa
Diriku terjerat cintamu
Dan aku tak ingin lepas
Larutkan aku dalam nyata
Riak belaimu yang akan
Temani setiamu padaku

*Apa coba...* XD