Saturday, August 15, 2009, 9:55 AM
OH MY LIFE.


Why?? Why it feels so miserable??


Eventhough this is a holiday, I have to study because the carbon-chain grade...
I want to play games but suddenly the emulator didn't work...
There's actually someone's liking me and I'm starting to like him too, but we can't meet. Nor talk. And I don't even remember his face
Next week I'll be going to Medan again and I kinda don't want to see my sister yet but I want to go to Medan!!
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP SO THAT I COULD FORGET ALL THIS BUT I CAN'T GRR FEELING GUILTY I'M NOT STUDYING
AND WHEN I'M TYPING THIS WHY DOES THE BOLD CHARACTERS KEEP POPPING OUT GRRRRR

Everything makes me depressed!! Well, not exactly 'depressed' like I was in 4th semester... I'm just feeling... DUH. I mean, it's like... There's a great opportunity out there and I sit here, hesitating >:[

Come on, people seriously. I'm gonna rant tonight yes Imma rant so hard.

1. I'm on my holiday. Why do I have to study grr this is SO against the rules. No one's allowed to study in holiday!!
2. I have the emulator, I have the somewhat the-configuration-tools-and-utility-blahblahblahidon'tunderstand, but suddenly it didn't work!! >:[ Breath of Fire III I played several weeks ago was starting to get interesting!!
3. He likes me. And I like him. Why can't we meet? Why can't we talk? Why can't we go out together? Why can't I remember his face grrr WHY CAN'T I EVEN HAVE HIS PICTURE >:[
4. I have my own home in Medan yet I don't feel like spending much time there. Nuts sister ruining my life. 6 years, I tell ya. 6 YEARS.
5. Ooohh grrr I should've study. This is a great opportunity to change my grades!!
6. Oh no the bold characters' gone.

Aw fuck this I don't want to think about all this. I don't want to think about my shitty life that brought my grades go down (thanks jerk classmates), I don't want to think evil sister that ruined my life, I don't want to think about him because he's making me lonely, I don't want to think about the emulator because it doesn't work, I don't want to think about Medan... I think I'll just have to concentrate on my study. On holiday oooohhh grumblegrumbleajda;ldjas;ljdals

I just want to lead a normal, simple and happy life. I just want to think that... "so what if my sister doesn't like me the way I am? I don't like her the way she is either!!", "so what if I can't put make-ups on, I still can look decent and sweet", "so what if we can't meet or talk? That doesn't mean that I can't be happy without him duh get a grip", "so what if the emulator doesn't work I still have my NDS", "so what if my grades are bad all I have to do now is changing it"...

I want to have a simple thinking like that... Enough all this.
*put Pink - So What on iTunes*

I. Don't. Want. To. Think. About. It.